10th monthsary

Yesterday was our monthsary (supposedly) * I know I don't have to dwell with it, but I have to as part of moving on* I was doing some paper works when I remembered the date. First thing that came in my mind " We should have been celebrating our 10th month" but then I erased it eventually. Past is past. I was able to find my journal, few days ago. And I realized that as early as September, I already felt something different in our relationship. It was the start of a drastic change,if I may say. I began to felt different with him. I began to notice his changes that made me feel sad. At one point, I felt tired but I held on. Hopeful as I can be, that maybe some day things will be alright. I didn't give up. After what happened this month, I felt relieved. I cried, I mourned but after that, I stopped. There are things that I have to accept. I'm still bitter (a bit) but this is just one stage. I am happier now. Although there are times that I miss him, I don't dwell in it anymore. Well 9 months is 9 months. Short as it may seem but for me, it was a great moment in my life. I've learned something. Someday, I might forgive him. Someday I WILL forget him. I'm opening my doors with a lot of possibilities. And I'm not closing it to anyone. But just what they say "TRUE LOVE WAITS"